Ichigo Dokidoki ~ Too sweet to understand

...More days until spring break! :D But looking out the third story window now, it doesn't seem very... springy. v_v The birds are chirping, the grass is slowly but surely turning greener, and I look outside and there is FOG. FOG just ruins my day. Almost as much as being denied the chance to win against Conee-kun. D:

I WILL WIN ONE DAY! D:<

Lately I've been into a different anime, even though I haven't finished Tengen Toppa. ^^;; It's called Clannad. And it's really cute. And silly. But it has those tearjerking moments that make it worthwhile. @___@ Has beautiful art too~

Spring break! What will I do? Probably just stay home all week. Or be forced to go to the dollar store with my mom. <_< Like she makes us sometimes. Do you know how much it sucks? It sucks a lot. I go to the mall enough as it is, seeing as how I work there, AND THERES NOTHING TO DO.

All I want to do is stay home and sleep in. And play Super Smash Bros. Brawl. And play Sims 2. And talk to my friends on AIM. And talk to my friends in person. And on the phone. And in my sleep (just kidding.)

I finished Excel Project 3 and that's why I'm on here. :D There's nothing else to do. Unless I wanted to go on Gaia. But I don't want people looking over my shoulder reading my Private Messages. <_< Beh.

What else... What else....?

Jessie needs something to do when she's not brawlin', talkin', or computerin'. And yes, there are times when I can't do any of those. D: (For example, when it's Jenny's turn on the computer, my mom's watching TV in the living room, and it's before 9.)

Cat's writing a story based off of Alice in Wonderland. :0 It looks nice.

I should probably write stories in my spare time. :x But I never have that strike of inspiration and I barely ever follow my own projects through (example: Conee-kun's Rinoa kitty mascot.) I probably should change that about myself.

I told myself at the beginning of the year that I wanted to change. Not a drastic change, but a change for the better. I wouldn't be as emotional as I have been these past three months. I want to be less selfish in my relationship, and feeling sorry for myself, and looking down on people. I probably should be more patient too. <.< But there's just something that irks me about people who don't do what they're supposed to/read what they're supposed to and just ask someone else what to do or to copy off 'em. Maybe I'm referring to some people in the academy. <_< But seeing as how that's who I spend most of my classes with, it's highly probable. And right.

Anyways, there's ten minutes left. I better go do something actually productive.

The day before yesterday, I saw a deer.

And yesterday, a rabbit.

Today, I found you.<3

So it's been about a month since I last updated this deshou? :3 Kairi-chan's + Tony-kun's + Bong Vi's birthdays will be coming up in two weeks and Love + mine's 6 month anni in three. Time sure does fly by fast.~ But it's one of those things that I like and dislike. ACen's coming up in two n a half months, but it just feels like I'm running, running and I don't have time to stop and enjoy the sunshine. Which there is a lack of lately. Well, it's here, but there's still snow. And after all this snow, I've started getting sick of it and the cold. x_x

Lately I've been relistening to musical-like music. Songs from Wicked (Defying Gravity, hence the blog title, and For Good) and from that one movie that I still want to see even though it's not in theaters anymore and it's not as DVD either - Enchanted (That's How You Know and Happy Working Song.) They're all so happy. ^-^

So in about two weeks I'll have enough classes to test for my brown belt. But I definitely need more classes. x_x My sparring sucks and I barely know the second half of my form. *sigh* Ah well.

Lately I've been watching this one anime that Conee-kun showed me (he finished it yesterday,) Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann. It's funny dayo. =] Warning: Total shounen anime seeing as how it has risque camera angles of Yoko. Is mecha dayo. Mecha and guns. And mole-pigs. Boota's so cute. >w<

I wonder if I can type Japanese on here. o.o

ずっとずっと愛しています！

Tehe. ^^ It works~ But I don't know if it'll show up on your individual computers. D: Ah well.

Piichan! Piichan! I love you. :D I think you're the only person who actually reads my random sporadic blogging. Maybe. And you do make a good point. I like surprising people also. :0 Which makes it that much nicer when Conee-kun does those little unexpected things. It just makes me love him even more.<3

My love for you grows bigger everyday!

Heehee, Zhayzhay plays FFR. She probably doesn't even have the sound on. :P Silly Zhayzhay.

There have been a lot of maybes in my life lately. Some of them are good, some of them are bad. Some of them I want to happen, some of them I don't. And I really wish that things would turn in my favor. D:

1. I might be getting a cellphone. Could be my dad's old one (ick) or one of the new ones he got in the mail (they're shiny and black! *o*.)

2. I might be moving. =/ I don't think it's going to be soon, but I don't want to move at all. D: I mean, all my aunt did was send me a document of houses for sale in either Elgin, Aurora, or Chicago Heights. And frankly, I like how my life here is now. It could be just a passing whim for my mom or it could be something actually serious. I don't know. I'm just trying not to think about it right now.

3. Sometimes I wonder if I start bothering people. =/ There's rambling because people want to hear and there's rambling that people don't want to hear. I don't know if you want me to ramble or not! >< At least this isn't as bad as how Nami-chan's been feeling. I'll help you get through this Nami-chan! >_<

4. I need a new MMO to keep me entertained. D: DoMO's gotten boring, people are leaving DoMO, and Mabinogi sucks. <_< At least my computer didn't like it, so it made me not-like it.

Oh, the ramblings of people who have too much time on their hands. Reminds me of Ouran. ^^ Tehe.

Seeing as how long this is.. I think I'll just leave it here. But I don't know what I'll be doing for the next fifteen minutes of the period. x_x; I'll find something.

Don't believe in yourself! Believe in me, who believes in you!

It has been months since I last posted  this. x_x Maybe because I've been using my composition notebook instead to preserve my feelings and stuff. Although most of it is about my love. ^^;;

Methinks he'll be able to go to ACen. I REALLY hope he does. :P Couple cosplay, yeah? I still need to ask my parents, but I'm going to Winter Formal with him. ^^ It'll be fun.

Yesterday was really nice. :3 Went over to his house and one thing led to another and... He still gives me butterflies.<3

So a band that I have just started listening to.. is Avenged Sevenfold! :0 Some of you may be going "But Jesshi! That is a lot different from what you usually listen to!" I was over at Hitonee's house last Saturday when A7X's Bat Country came on and I really liked it. o.O The day after I just started searching for A7X songs and... At first, I thought "hm. Am I doing this because I actually like it or because Conee-kun likes it?" Now I'm pretty sure, I like it. ^^ At least, the songs with mostly singing. I can't stand screamo. =_____= Favorite songs so far? Bat Country, A Little Piece of Heaven, and Almost Easy. :P

I finished (almost) all my homework Friday. I had nothing else to do! D: I've been playing this MMO called Dream of Mirror Online, but now... It's gotten kinda boring. Mostly I just go on to talk to Hitonee nowadays. <_< Honestly, this is the longest I've been on an MMO since MapleStory. Nyaha. :P

Hmm.. What else? It seems something's going pretty well with a friend of mine, although she didn't get to meet her crush in person Friday. =x I'm hoping for the best! ><

School's been going okay, aced all my finals. :P Now I have keyboarding and gym. v_v Ick. And Japanese is going to be a lot harder- Sensei's stricter and is demanding moar. Joy.

On a closing note- I am the luckiest girl in the world. <3

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Jesshi-chan ish so.. I don't know. She doesn't even know what she's feeling. The only thing that she knows now though, is that she wishes she can go to Bartlett Homecoming. T^T But she can't. You know why? Because Austin is having his first birthday party and you know how Asian parties are. The party ends when you leave. <_<;; I know I shouldn't be blaming Austin (or my entire family for that matter, since they told us like, a month before) but I really wanted to go to Homecoming. She could've used her wedding reception dress and accessories and everything. T_T And she would've been real pretty too. (I should probably stop talking in third person now.)

Watashi no kareshi wa definitely nicer than Piichan's card (which IS pretty nice.) I love him very much so. :3

I love Piichan too, so it works out, yeah? *heart shape with fingers* I love you Piichan! :3

But anyways, I should probably go somewhere else now.

Fighting! >w<

Oh yeah. Jesshi is in love. After her last post, she actually did confess. After her shower, of course. And he actually said yes. *sigh*~ If homework was gone...

A lot of people know now. Because a certain BRIAN had to blurt it out in English at the beginning of the week. <____< Why? I don't know. He's just weird like that.

Conee-kun might get to go to Reactor. :3 I'm so happy. But I don't think he will. Wrestling n all. Teehee, dragging blankets... *starts daydreaming*

o_o Anyways... homecoming week is next week! :D Yay for dressing up. I heard that this year sophomores are cowboys. What the heck is with that? <___< I don't want to be a cowboy! Cowgirl. Whatever. Unless...

Moo! 8D Yeah. I want to be a literal cow girl. <_< I don't think the people would get that joke though.

Man I'm hungry...

But also very happy. :3

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Is the song that I'm learning the words to. :3 I think I'm doing pretty well, considering it's in Japanese. I've been watching the series, I started a long time ago but never finished. It's so interesting! >___< If I actually watched it in chronological order, episode 14 would've made a very good ending. Even if with the episodes in order it would've made no sense.

WHY IS IT SO COLD?! The thermostat's set to 80 degrees, but the heat isn't on. T____T What the heck? I'm sitting here in the blanket and slippers, and my fingers and toes are still cold. These headphones keep my ears warm though. ^^ Autumn is so close to getting here. I can just tell. The sudden coldness likes to get all in your face. =___=

Anime club was after school today, and it will be for the rest of the year. I can sense love in the air.~ The two people involved are just too stupid to realize it. What we're doing for the festival seems.. idunno. It's not like we can do anything else. I think it'll still be fun though. :3 If we cosplay though, I'll be freezing my butt off. <_<;; I don't even know if I can go. After anime club we went to Shamoo's house, but I could only stay for like ten minutes before my dad came to pick me up. D: I got three cupcakes though. >w< AND WE HAVE STRING CHEESE. OMG. STRING. CHEESE. *is in her happy world*

We didn't get that much homework this weekend. o.o But I have a chem quiz and a math quiz on Monday. D:

On subjects of the heart... I'm thinking of confessing soon. Maybe. The horoscope says it's a good weekend to do something. [Namine: When in doubt, ask the horoscope!] I really hope it goes really well. >___<

On subjects of drama: Steve is a [insertswearwordhere] [Hito: OMG! Jessie swore!] It was all a game to him. She was only a game to him. I think we should fork his lawn.

o.o That must've been the longest I've ever written something.

...Awesome! :D I'll be leaving now. My fingers have turned into icicles.

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Okay! Well! It's been a while. ._. And now some new updates:

*Beverage consumption! :3

*This! Is! CAKETOWN! D:<

Turns out, I'm not going to be Kagura after all. ^^;; Saving monies, plus I'd rather be Rinoa. :3 She's more of my character type. Not to say that Kagura is bad though, I probably wouldn't be able to like, be as enthusiastic. ._.;;

What's this? Oh, Jessie-chan is in love~. That explains the heart. But I won't share who. D:<

And now she's really cold, so she'll leave now.

G'night! ^^~

We have like almost no homework today! Woot! :D [/stilldoinghomeworkthough] Meh, I can finish it soon. [/myposterwascraptastic]

On other news, I'm going to le mall on Saturday. Yay for fun times with friends! I don't really want to buy anything though, I'm trying to save it up for Reactor. >_o  Reactor '07 will be fun, I hope. Going as Fruit Basket's Kagura! :3 I hope I can just act in character enough.

Kyo-kun I love you!!! *glomp*

Yeah, like that. ACen '08 will be fun too. :3 Linny's coming!~

Anyways, I probably SHOULD get back to le homework. Bleh.

Persuaded by Piichan and her pretty blog (and my insane boredom,) I created this Vox. There's still a lot more I need to fix. But I'm doing homework. Buuuuu.

Why does my health class give me more homework than other classes anyway? I'm only having it for one semester. And le teacher stresses so much on creativity and coloring. I can't color my pictures. It just makes them look worse. D:

Anywho, I probably should stop procrastinating. Really. Like, right now. .-. (We all know I just want to make this look longer than it actually is.) But yeah, I guess I'll just finish up now.

We have three and a half choco-chip cookies. What the heck? Who only eats half a cookie?